So I say to Dee, “this blog thing is not therapeutic” and she says “well it wont be unless u use it as a therapeutic outlet and tool” or something to that effect. So, here goes therapy…
ENVY - An emotion that "occurs when a person lacks another’s [perceived] superior quality, achievement, or possession and either desires it or wishes that the other lacked it." It can also derive from a sense of low self-esteem that results from an upward social comparison threatening a person's self image: another person has something that the envier considers to be important to have. If the other person is perceived to be similar to the envier, the aroused envy will be particularly intense, because it signals to the envier that it just as well could have been him or her who had the desired object.
Bertrand Russell said envy was one of the most potent causes of unhappiness. It is a universal and most unfortunate aspect of human nature because not only is the envious person rendered unhappy by his envy, but also wishes to inflict misfortune on others.
That being said… Im over it. My life if full of genuine love, and daily showered with grace and mercy. Thank you Dee.