Evny

So I say to Dee, “this blog thing is not therapeutic” and she says “well it wont be unless u use it as a therapeutic outlet and tool” or something to that effect. So, here goes therapy…

ENVY - An emotion that "occurs when a person lacks another’s [perceived] superior quality, achievement, or possession and either desires it or wishes that the other lacked it." It can also derive from a sense of low self-esteem that results from an upward social comparison threatening a person's self image: another person has something that the envier considers to be important to have. If the other person is perceived to be similar to the envier, the aroused envy will be particularly intense, because it signals to the envier that it just as well could have been him or her who had the desired object.

Bertrand Russell said envy was one of the most potent causes of unhappiness. It is a universal and most unfortunate aspect of human nature because not only is the envious person rendered unhappy by his envy, but also wishes to inflict misfortune on others.

That being said… Im over it. My life if full of genuine love, and daily showered with grace and mercy. Thank you Dee.

The way it is.

I slipped on a patch of ice and shattered my leg into three pieces on February 2^nd. Sometimes it takes being placed in a situation you can not control to make your perspective change. I have always prided myself in being independent, self sufficient and in control. Well, apparently God wanted to teach me a lesson in humility…

I can not walk for a total of three months… my mother says that maybe this experience will lower my nose a little out of the air, blah – stranger things have happened.

I have become completely dependent on my husband, who never complains,  is staying out of work to care for me and puts up with my frustrations, rants, attitude and gas.  I have watched him without pause become both mother and father, he has always had a close connection with our son & been an active father, but w/ me being laid up and gimped out he does EVERYTHING. Cooks, cleans, changes diapers, makes bottles, everything. And here I sit, surfing the entire internet and I’ve seen everything on cable television.

All this to say – I am thankful. I am thankful that my fall was not worse. I am thankful that my nosey neighbors came outside once they heard me yelling for help. I am thankful that there was not wait at the ER, my hand IV didn’t hurt and the morphine kicked in right away. I am thankful that I did not have the baby with me when I fell nor did I hit my head or bust my teeth out. I’m thankful for a wonderful and supportive husband and for short term disability insurance.

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